Assalamualaikum to the people in da world, especially you, who read my post :) Alhamdulillah, there are just a few days to 2014. People are too busy with their wish, their 'azam' for this new year. Maybe its good if the 'azam' is a good thing that will make a very big changes in your life. Everyone knows that some wish is hard to make it comes true. Eventhough its hard, at least we need to make a try for it. We can't just sit down, and wait for it to come for us. We are the one who need to make an effort for what we want, what we want to have and what we want to achieve. Our wish or our dreams will not come after us if we're just doing nothing. Yes, maybe our wish or our dreams is too big and too hard for us, and sometimes we just let it just be a dream. But as long as the thing is called a wish or 'azam' , we need to try even once to get it. 

As we know, in this world, the are many kinds of human. I mean, their attitude, their personalities, the way they act, the way they judge, the way they talk, the way they live. We all know that there are nobody in this world that are perfect. But sometimes it is our fault because we can't see the right things and the wrong things that  happened around us. And because of these things, we are too easy to give up for what we want, the dreams, the 'azam' . I know, some people are too weak to face the situation that they never been before, like me. Yes, i have a lot of dreams, a lot of 'azam' in my life. Not only when the new year comes, everyday, every single day, i always have at least one dream. One of my dream that will never fade away is, i want to be a good muslimah, a good girl that everyone glad to know, to see, to be friends with. Ill bet, every girls have this kind of dream too. To be a good muslimah is not easy for me, for a girl like me, that always with a different lifestyle. Im born with a simple life, where i can do what i want, as long as the batas pergaulan masih dikawal, masih boleh fikir yang mana baik dan buruk and etc. I dont know, what can I say is, my life is simple. Too simple. And what i want is, to change my simple life to a different life where we called it as a muslimah life. Hurm, if you wanna know, its really hard. Humans make me give up easily, lose my confidence, lose my strength. This is all because of humans. 

There are too many people who love to judge for who we are. Then what i do? Surely silence can be the most eloquent reply. They said, " Dia tak boleh berubah. Dia takkan berubah. Dia teruk, mana mungkin nak berubah! Berubah itu satu perkara yang mustahil untuk dia buat. Memang tak lah! "

Dont you hurt if you heard this? Dont you give up when you heard this? Dont you ever feel like your dreams is hard to achieve when anybody said it to you? For sure. Im hurt too much, i try my best to bear, to accept this kind of judging that can kill me inside. But alhamdulillah, Allah always here. To give me strength. And if you have this kind of feeling that almost bring you down, almost give up, remember this, 'Dont be sad, Allah is with us'. We just need to be like a flower that gives its fragrance even to the hand that crushes it. Dont reply what they did to us, its Allah's work to do for us. How many times should we forgive a person? The answer is, as many times as you would like Allah to forgive you.